My 2020 Reflections

A year of hardhsip and a year of shifts.

Today is New Year's Eve of 2020. We have officially made it to the end of a very unique year.

This year has brought many different ways of life we never thought we would have to endure. It has brought new events that have challenged our strength as individuals, a nation, and a world.

The events of 2020 brought us closer together at some points and further away at others. However, one thing is for sure, all of our lives have been changed this year, big or small.

Some have lost loved ones, jobs, a home, social interaction, independence. We might have felt more lonely than ever but we also got to know ourselves a little better.

I for one can not believe that the year is over. I can remember the start of this year so clearly. To think that Kobe Bryant died almost a year ago is insane to me.

Up until mid-March, it was a normal first couple of months in the new year for me.

Then when that time came everything changed quicker than I could blink. I can remember how I felt hearing the rumors that we would go on lockdown, having to come home from college, begin school online, and not leave the house except for essential needs.

I can remember the fear I felt and the fear the people around me felt. There was frustration, anger, confusion, sadness, and worry filling the air. The challenges that were staring us all in the face were so unfamiliar no one knew how to navigate them.

I had to stop watching the media because it became too much. It consumed our lives, the numbers, the stories.

I was struggling in my own way and lost sight of what I had to be grateful for.

I had a big perspective shift about halfway through the year. One of the things I realized was that as hard as this year was it does not define my life. I am not a victim of any of the events that occurred this year and even though it’s tough there is still a lot of good that came out of it.

It can be hard to see the good in 2020 if you had more struggles than you could handle but I guarantee there is something there.

The fact that you are reading this right now means you have survived this crazy year and that is something good.

Sometimes we have to fall apart before we can be put back together stronger than before. The world works the same way. In order to reach the level of love and consciousness desired everything has to breakdown so that we can uncover the root of the negativity and pain.

2020 was just that; an opportunity to discover our truths and dive deeper into who we are individually and together. Now as 2021 begins we enter a transition phase of the world. We rebuild ourselves and the world by putting what we learned into action, based all on love not hate.

It’s not to say that 2021 will be all rainbows and sunshine, there is always more work to do and more to learn. We never stop growing and we never stop encountering challenges that force us to look deeper than the surface.

However, your perspective may have changed now. When those challenges come up don’t fight it, accept it and see what it has to offer you. This is another thing I learned this year.

2020 is historic, you have lived through a significant time in human existence. When you think about it, that’s kind of cool.

Anyways, 2020 was intense and hard but more than anything it was important for us all to live through. I have not experienced the worst that others have this year and my heart goes out to all those who were heavily impacted by this year's events. However, whatever your circumstances are you could still apply what I am saying to your own life.

As hard as this year was I don’t believe 2020 was here to hurt us, I think it was here to teach us what we refused to learn without it.

So here’s to 2021, a year I feel will be the start of many new things and a time for us all to heal and experience a rebirth.

I wish you all a safe, healthy, and loving New Year.

Sincerely,

Skylar Rae🌻❤️

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